Unfair

Sometimes what you feel is something so intense

that writing it down is the only relief in this pain

And no sooner that this is done, I know the pain is gone

But then your life becomes a public show, a shows grand finale

And there is a cheer in the crowd who sees you like this

Naked, resting in your own thought, a thousand flowers

Fall from the sky of sympathetic eyes.

Sometimes I let go, I try to feel nothing that comes my way

Loneliness, the blandness, the insecurites take me off route

I leave for the day, take an off and there is nothing

That would interest me more than the past of happenings

My saddened heart, my dry eyes look for them but alas

Those days seem to have gone, I am sure....

I am in the same place and yet everything seems different

Its sometimes almost like as if life been unfair with my case

Even on giving me my share, it took my interest from it

Sometimes even in having I feel I have lost everything

Its this sense of unbelonging that brings me onto the same things

LIfe's been really been unfair, I have always lost

Lost even in my losing my friend, lost in even winning.